I get a lot of comments about my song "Emet" which means 'truth' in my root language: Hebrew
When I wrote "Emet" over ten years ago, I had just begun my spiritual journey into my musical artwork for a living; living for my musical art might be a more accurate way to say it. It's almost as if these creations are children that need birthing and then a lot of attention and nurturing. Being a mother is not thought of as a career that has an hourly pay or salary, similarly I don't receive an hourly pay to do my artwork. It is a constant state of being that my whole life is designed around and devoted to. Sometimes pay jobs even get in the way of my artistic journey. But alas, I digress. EMET.
I had started to feel extremely sensitive to all energies around me. I was celibate and fasting from meat, sugar, alcohol, night clubs, and energy "zappers". It was very clear to me that I felt my beauty when I played my music. It was like my skin felt richer and the heat of my heart filled me up with authentic emotion in my smile and expression. I had developed major confidence issues with sharing my music in college because I just didn't feel good enough and welcome in my originality… and what was really going on is I no longer had any instrument to connect to the electricity of my spirit through my hands. Without the daily connection and recharging, it was hard to realize the music in my soul in a nurtured, realistic way… and so it temporarily died. I still sang.. other people's music. I still developed skills for performance and collaboration…
Relating to others and dating never came easy to me because as I told one first date "My language is music". I literally felt like words never satisfied my desire to connect with another soul. There was always something deeper and more comfortable vibrating under my skin. So it became evident that not doing my original music was not only hurting my musical development, but also my psychological development. Music always gave me a "way out" when I couldn't make sense of my existence. It brought what seemed like a spotlight over me showering me with a bath of truth and beauty… hmmm maybe that's where the spotlight idea came from lol. And even if it wasn't always received very well by my colleagues, friends, boyfriends, etc., I just got so much from it… like hanging out with a best friend and having so much fun and adventure. I am sure this feeling sounds familiar to many artists out there with all kinds of modalities.
Music not only nurtures me though, when I deny my musical mission I feel I am living a lie. Expressing my truth is intertwined with expressing my music. Songs often come from meditations or painful places that I travel through in my psyche. The pieces of the songs that come together are like putting a satisfying puzzle together. The meditation or healing journey to a place of pain that needs release is like finding a puzzle piece that my spirit was searching for in order to activate a musical message.
So I was in my twenties, feeling threatened by the beautiful models who had all the answers for my life to be as amazing as it can with the best make-up, clothing, diet, work-out, relationship and sex tips, right? But then I played my music and it was a short cut to all of that. I didn't need to put any make up on or style my hair a certain way, or get that season's fashion colors to feel even MORE beauty than I would if I looked exactly like the model that I was so intimidated by. And I just kind of GOT it. I realized there had to be SO many like me struggling to be "better" and not feeling their own beauty.
And to the same degree I felt awful when I wasn't doing my music and not expressing my truth and so I thought, well, of course, there must be others out there who don't have the full ability to express or even know their truth because of certain dysfunctional relationship ties to family or friends or society or career or themselves.
And so it also made sense in my mind that if one does not feel their own beauty or even know their truth because of whatever roles they are buried under, then it would be extremely hard for them to feel inner peace. And as we are the microcosm of the macrocosm, How can we achieve world peace if as individuals we live in a mental chaos of never being or doing enough for our immediate surroundings' approval. And thereby we would have no inner peace or even bliss, and yet it seems we are designed to feel bliss, love, peace, harmony etc. each and every day as the amazing miraculous creatures we are.
And all these thoughts came to me even before I started training in Qi Gong daily which brings me to that absolutely blissful state of body awareness and inner exploration.
All I had to do was "UNPLUG". I just stopped watching TV, stopped needing to connect with a social circle for approval, and stopped having expectations of myself to be accepted by certain people.
I learned in Hebrew School as a child about the "Messianic Age". It always made me smile to learn that the word "Messiah" can mean one being is being sent to 'save' us which does line up with the idea of Jesus coming again or another prophet being that one… but the Hebrew word can also be interpreted as a "time". Therefore the 'Messiah' coming bringing peace to the world can simply mean that this is a time when Heaven shall exist on earth that we all have created together. And this concept always brought rainbows bursting out of my eyes and heart with hope that YES we don't have to wait to be saved… we can work together and achieve peace TOGETHER right NOW.
And so I have been meditating on that ever since. I see great potential in all of us to keep giving each other love so that we can all live in our truth and beauty and this… I feel… is an automatic way to shift into a … peaceful reality.
What do you think? Here is a spotify link to the song.
I hope you enjoyed my background story to this song, and I hope you enjoy the song
Singing "Emet" As children lead dancing at a festival last year is exactly what this baby of a song is meant to inspire… dancing and expressing with joy of togetherness, beauty and love.
They just jumped on stage as if spirit led them and they danced with such intention and grace. One child even said with compassion and seriousness as the song ended
"We are changing the world right now"
Here are the words to the song:
Emet Teferet Emet Teferet
You think you need to be like all the magazines say. You think you need to talk like all the TV stars talk. You think you need to dress like people in your town dress. You think you need to think like teachers and your friends think. But what’s the truth??
Emet Teferet Emet Teferet
Do you believe your emet? Emet means truth. Do you know your teferet? Teferet means beauty. As I walk down the street I see teferet all around me. In your smile, in your walk, in your voice, in your clothes.
Emet Teferet Emet Teferet
When you sit and wait in line you’re beautiful! When you joke with your friends you’re beautiful.
When you gather at a dance you’re beautiful. And when you speak your truth you’re beautiful!
Emet Teferet Emet Teferet
You don’t have to try and be more, You’re perfect as you are! You don’t have to try and be.
You don’t have to try and be more, You’re perfect as you are! You don’t have to try and be.
So what’s the moral of this song? It's that we all can get along...
So what’s the moral of this song? It's that we all can get along. . .
Shalom . . .Shalom means peace
Shalom . . .Shalom means peace …
If we feel teferet, And believe our emet . . .We will have shalom . . .
If we feel teferet And believe our emet . . .We will have shalom . . .
Emet Teferet Emet Teferet
SHAAALOM
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